Today's Christmas Day. And my daughter died this year. And she loved Christmas. And I've been prone to holiday depression for years.
I haven't been looking forward to today.
After a great deal of consideration, the Smart Man and I decided that this year, we wouldn't celebrate. We didn't buy presents for anyone except our niece, who's 2 1/2 and doesn't understand. We told everyone we didn't want presents for ourselves. We have not put up a single holiday decoration here at the Big Yellow House. And we're staying home and waiting for the holiday to be over. It's all I feel like I'm up for - waiting it out.
And we'll also be planning our activities for the Alaskan Cruise we're going to be taking with my Hot MIL in the Spring. There's dog-sledding, whale watching, train rides, and more.
Today I'm grateful to have something to look forward to, even now, in this most difficult of times.
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Love and hugs. Enjoy the planning. I can't wait to hear of the escapades you will have. <3 you.
Peace and hugs, my dear.
Much love and many hugs.
Tight hus. And Cheezy Scoops.
Dammit. HUGS.
I love you.
And if hus goes with cheezy scoops, maybe MG should invent it.
Hugs, with all hope that you got through today with some peace, some solace and some light.
Love and hugs, my friend. Whenever they're needed, 'cause I have an infinite supply.
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