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Losing one of my children has always been the worst thing I could imagine, but losing Moe to suicide was so much harder than the worst possible outcome that raced through my mind when the Police came to our home two and a half years ago. Living with it is still the hardest thing in my life, and this article helps explain why. The money quote:
Slowly, you begin to accept the unacceptable. This opens the door to forgiveness. You forgive yourself, your loved one and anyone else involved, again and again, until there is no more fight and no more fury in you. There are no more walls or resistance. Everything has been stomped out of your heart. You have been broken. You are empty -- and, equally, you are fully open.I'm not there yet, but I will occasionally see flashes of this holy grail in the distance. And I'm thankful, each and every day, that my family and friends are still here, holding the light for me, urging me onward in my journey. I don't know what I would have done without you.
This openness creates a perceptible shift of your internal axis. You are no longer knotted and pretzeled. You feel altered, changed, different. You begin to breathe a little deeper. You have found a more expansive understanding and a bigger, more inclusive love. These are the holy grail of your healing journey.
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The United States Air Force confirmed Thursday that the unclaimed remains of 274 U.S. service members were disposed of in a Virginia landfill between 2003 and 2008. It's not often that I'm at a loss for words, but really - I don't even know what to say to this.
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Video of my Heart: Clyde wants a kitty.
1 comments:
True.
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So glad to hear you are seeing hints of a holy grail. I know it doesn't replace what you've lost, but it would be good to know that there is progress on your journey. <3
You are greatly loved.
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WTF?
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And what a sweet video!
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